I just learned that two monorails collided about 2AM this morning on the Epcot track at Walt Disney World.
My heart goes out to the family of the driver!
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My heart goes out to the family of the driver!
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- Mood:
sad
I feel officially old. The Sony Walkman is 30. I had one of those (and LOVED it, thank you very much!).
So they gave one to a 13 yr old (I'm sure he wasn't an average Joe, though).
He had some (ahem) things to say about it.
So they gave one to a 13 yr old (I'm sure he wasn't an average Joe, though).
He had some (ahem) things to say about it.
- Mood: sleepy
- Music:song in my head: Code of Ethics "Move Me"
- Mood:
Wow! - Music:Alucard "Late Summer Fields" Thrillseekers Vol 2
Sis came over tonight and we ordered Chinese and caught up on the TiVo stuff.
Good - Top Chef Masters. Awesome show!
Just wish they had Padma hosting - it doesn't feel right without her.
Bad - My fortune - "You will soon be crossing the great waters."
So, there you have it... I've had a wonderful life and I will miss you all...
Ugly - What happened toward the end of Next Food Network Star.
Good - Top Chef Masters. Awesome show!
Just wish they had Padma hosting - it doesn't feel right without her.
Bad - My fortune - "You will soon be crossing the great waters."
So, there you have it... I've had a wonderful life and I will miss you all...
Ugly - What happened toward the end of Next Food Network Star.
N Korea's threat of Nuclear War
- Mood:
confused
So today, I experienced technology.
I remotely joined an annual meeting taking place in Michigan where my dad has traveled to this week. I called him (to make sure he was there) and they told him to walk in front of the webcam. So I got to see him (yay!).
We watched the presentation with the slide show clearly visible and a chat window available for us to pass on our questions.
Granted, this is nothing new to a lot of you but I've been living in the dark ages. (and writing there, too - but I digress...)
Then, my mother-in-law and her boyfriend came up and told us about the house they've been renovating and just moved into. This caused my technogeek husband to go into shock because his own mother has surpassed him in the realm of technology.
She has obtained:
- FiOS - and he has just informed me again of his rage that we cannot get this - "Curse you, Shite House!!"
- a new flat panel LED tv that he has been drooling over - "I went to Best Buy tonight, Honey, and checked on our TV. It wants to come home with us. It doesn't understand why it's still at the store."
- BluRay player - "Don't get me started..."
And on the way home, he reminded me that he still wants a PS3 next year. I pointed out that after waiting only 3½ yrs, he will be able to get it at ½ price, most of the bugs have been worked out and the games he wanted will be available.
I remotely joined an annual meeting taking place in Michigan where my dad has traveled to this week. I called him (to make sure he was there) and they told him to walk in front of the webcam. So I got to see him (yay!).
We watched the presentation with the slide show clearly visible and a chat window available for us to pass on our questions.
Granted, this is nothing new to a lot of you but I've been living in the dark ages. (and writing there, too - but I digress...)
Then, my mother-in-law and her boyfriend came up and told us about the house they've been renovating and just moved into. This caused my technogeek husband to go into shock because his own mother has surpassed him in the realm of technology.
She has obtained:
- FiOS - and he has just informed me again of his rage that we cannot get this - "Curse you, Shite House!!"
- a new flat panel LED tv that he has been drooling over - "I went to Best Buy tonight, Honey, and checked on our TV. It wants to come home with us. It doesn't understand why it's still at the store."
- BluRay player - "Don't get me started..."
And on the way home, he reminded me that he still wants a PS3 next year. I pointed out that after waiting only 3½ yrs, he will be able to get it at ½ price, most of the bugs have been worked out and the games he wanted will be available.
- Mood:
geeky
So, today, I had my first instance on the good and bad of the internet. (well, not really my first...)
I woke up early and decided to do some writing. Turns out the Net was down, so I really did have to actually write.
The problem is that I was writing a scene where I needed some synonyms and architectural definitions. Without the Net, I had to resort to the good old fashioned paper Dictionary and Synonym Finder. Gah. Yeah, I didn't find the words I was looking for. I repeat - I DID NOT find the words I was looking for. What the hay? I'm a WRITER! I KNOW dictionaries!
I never realized how much I relied on Dictionary.com (nevermind that I made it my homepage when I started typing up this story in April) and the Images search on Yahoo. Ah, the power of suggestion when you're not totally sure what you're looking for.
Had the Net been up, I would have found the words in less than five minutes and then spent the next few hours doing everything BUT writing. *headdesk*
The 2 words needed were: Archivolt and Pediment.
After writing the scene, my husband helped make it better and then, I DELETED those words. Yeah, I know, but it made it too technical and jerked me out of the story when I reread it.
At least I learned something.
And for the record, the Death scene is good!
I woke up early and decided to do some writing. Turns out the Net was down, so I really did have to actually write.
The problem is that I was writing a scene where I needed some synonyms and architectural definitions. Without the Net, I had to resort to the good old fashioned paper Dictionary and Synonym Finder. Gah. Yeah, I didn't find the words I was looking for. I repeat - I DID NOT find the words I was looking for. What the hay? I'm a WRITER! I KNOW dictionaries!
I never realized how much I relied on Dictionary.com (nevermind that I made it my homepage when I started typing up this story in April) and the Images search on Yahoo. Ah, the power of suggestion when you're not totally sure what you're looking for.
Had the Net been up, I would have found the words in less than five minutes and then spent the next few hours doing everything BUT writing. *headdesk*
The 2 words needed were: Archivolt and Pediment.
After writing the scene, my husband helped make it better and then, I DELETED those words. Yeah, I know, but it made it too technical and jerked me out of the story when I reread it.
At least I learned something.
And for the record, the Death scene is good!
- Mood: i r a ryter
So, while writing, I've let the finances go. Oh, I've paid the bills (and thankfully never been late) but I didn't reconcile anything as we spent, spent, spent...
Oy.
Yeah, it was bad. Kind of expected anyway, what with friends coming down and some necessities taken care of (brakes on the wheelchair / Dr Visits etc) Still...
So, I've spent the whole day doing nothing but that and that's the reason for the title of this post. If I'd just take care of it each day like I used to instead of letting it pile up... (How many times have we all thought that?)
My viewpoint is that I can either have a right-brained or left-brained day. I can't do both. Obviously, that's not true since kids take English AND Math in the same day in school (or maybe that's one problem with the system). I just feel that working on the finances kills my creativity. And I'm very upset that it took me this long to finish them and now I am too tired to write.
Well, nano taught me one thing - sleep be damned.
I'm off to write about Death's Door... (srsly!)
Oh, and while I'm still here (speaking of Death, dammit) I had a Mom Moment today. *sniff*.
It's the 9th now and 1 month away from being 2 years since she passed. I was writing a check out to the lawn dude and his name starts with an "M". So did Mom's and as I wrote, I flashed to watching her write her name. I always did love the way she made her "M"'s and I make mine a little similar.
*sigh* Miss you, Mom.
Oy.
Yeah, it was bad. Kind of expected anyway, what with friends coming down and some necessities taken care of (brakes on the wheelchair / Dr Visits etc) Still...
So, I've spent the whole day doing nothing but that and that's the reason for the title of this post. If I'd just take care of it each day like I used to instead of letting it pile up... (How many times have we all thought that?)
My viewpoint is that I can either have a right-brained or left-brained day. I can't do both. Obviously, that's not true since kids take English AND Math in the same day in school (or maybe that's one problem with the system). I just feel that working on the finances kills my creativity. And I'm very upset that it took me this long to finish them and now I am too tired to write.
Well, nano taught me one thing - sleep be damned.
I'm off to write about Death's Door... (srsly!)
Oh, and while I'm still here (speaking of Death, dammit) I had a Mom Moment today. *sniff*.
It's the 9th now and 1 month away from being 2 years since she passed. I was writing a check out to the lawn dude and his name starts with an "M". So did Mom's and as I wrote, I flashed to watching her write her name. I always did love the way she made her "M"'s and I make mine a little similar.
*sigh* Miss you, Mom.
- Mood:
okay - Music:Evbointh "One Wish" Thrillseekers
Today was a great day.
Went to Red Lobster for Dad's bday dinner and they sang the regular Happy Bday song to him when they brought out his dessert. Nice.
Ate myself stupid. Not so nice.
So while my husband took my dad out after dinner, I went for another 2 mile walk (3rd one this week! Yay!). This time, I brought my camera and caught some pics as I roamed around my neighborhood.
My husband got me some flowers and some Ken-Ken books while they were out.
( I am loved... )
Went to Red Lobster for Dad's bday dinner and they sang the regular Happy Bday song to him when they brought out his dessert. Nice.
Ate myself stupid. Not so nice.
So while my husband took my dad out after dinner, I went for another 2 mile walk (3rd one this week! Yay!). This time, I brought my camera and caught some pics as I roamed around my neighborhood.
My husband got me some flowers and some Ken-Ken books while they were out.
( I am loved... )
- Mood: That's why God made the moon.
- Music:"Orion's Belt"
24 years ago today, I had a horrible bike accident.
My brother and I were riding our bikes home from the after-school sitter's house, following my mom (my sister was in the car with her). The last thing I remember is looking up and seeing her turn the corner ahead of us. My next (fuzzy) memory is of me glancing in my parent's closet mirror, holding a bloody towel to my mouth.
Frankly, I'm glad I did that or I'd have even less memories of that day. As weird as it sounds, I almost wish we'd taken pictures.
3 days later, my face had completely healed. My only scar is on the back of my right wrist - that and years of dental stuff.
2 years ago today, my mom went into the hospital for the last time. It was the day after my husband and I had turned in the key to our last apartment after moving into our house. That is hands down the most stressful time I've had in my life but there were bright moments even then.
Today, is good for me. Possibly because we recovered the file I deleted, possibly because I actually got some sleep... or cause I just feel loved. In any case, I'm glad to be alive today.
Tomorrow is my Dad's birthday.
My brother and I were riding our bikes home from the after-school sitter's house, following my mom (my sister was in the car with her). The last thing I remember is looking up and seeing her turn the corner ahead of us. My next (fuzzy) memory is of me glancing in my parent's closet mirror, holding a bloody towel to my mouth.
Frankly, I'm glad I did that or I'd have even less memories of that day. As weird as it sounds, I almost wish we'd taken pictures.
3 days later, my face had completely healed. My only scar is on the back of my right wrist - that and years of dental stuff.
2 years ago today, my mom went into the hospital for the last time. It was the day after my husband and I had turned in the key to our last apartment after moving into our house. That is hands down the most stressful time I've had in my life but there were bright moments even then.
Today, is good for me. Possibly because we recovered the file I deleted, possibly because I actually got some sleep... or cause I just feel loved. In any case, I'm glad to be alive today.
Tomorrow is my Dad's birthday.
- Mood:
peaceful
I'm so tired, my eyes can barely stay open. But I am happy! Happy, I tell you!!! And I totally love my husband.
It took 3 programs.
2 of them spent hours looking but couldn't find the deleted file. 1 even presented me with a list of 670 documents...
only 33 of which were not currently available on my computer.
WTF? Why would you bill yourself as a "recover lost files" program only to tell me what I can currently access????? THEN WANT TO CHARGE $80 TO RECOVER A FILE??? Oy.
During the 4 hours it took for us to discover that the two programs didn't work, I tried to recreate the fight scene that I'd lost but I could only remember bits and pieces and they weren't very good. I sometimes just have a personal block if I lose things.
But, I've shed enough tears tonight... grrr to losing 6 hours of writing time due to my own stupidity. *shakes fist* curses!
*sigh* now back to beating the crap out of my characters...
The program that worked: small enough to fit on my thumb drive... found all recoverable files in less than 5 minutes - including the one I needed!!!!! YAY!!!!
I would like to give a personal shout out to Free Undelete.
I love you. mwhaaa!
It took 3 programs.
2 of them spent hours looking but couldn't find the deleted file. 1 even presented me with a list of 670 documents...
only 33 of which were not currently available on my computer.
WTF? Why would you bill yourself as a "recover lost files" program only to tell me what I can currently access????? THEN WANT TO CHARGE $80 TO RECOVER A FILE??? Oy.
During the 4 hours it took for us to discover that the two programs didn't work, I tried to recreate the fight scene that I'd lost but I could only remember bits and pieces and they weren't very good. I sometimes just have a personal block if I lose things.
But, I've shed enough tears tonight... grrr to losing 6 hours of writing time due to my own stupidity. *shakes fist* curses!
*sigh* now back to beating the crap out of my characters...
The program that worked: small enough to fit on my thumb drive... found all recoverable files in less than 5 minutes - including the one I needed!!!!! YAY!!!!
I would like to give a personal shout out to Free Undelete.
I love you. mwhaaa!
- Mood: ecstatic
Microsoft Word is normally fine for me. Normally. Today, it's on my shitlist!!
It all began innocently enough when I decided to save a copy of my manuscript on my thumb drive since I was working on the story as a thunderstorm approached.
Normally, I would have just gone to the "my documents" folder and "sent" a copy to the thumb drive. But no! I freaking decided to use the "save as" function.
Again, normally not a problem...
But keep in mind that I'm using a different font style and size than Times New Roman 10 which MW thinks of as "normal".
And when you use a different style/size, it makes a template in the little drop down menu next to the font style you're currently using.
I know this - I should also know better than to think that MW knows what it's doing in this area.
Well, once you've used "saved as" and you open the document again, the template goes back to "normal". So, when I started editing, it put every little change I made back into TNR 10 instead of what I had been using.
NORMALLY - I would just select all and change everything to the font/size I wanted.
But that got old, really quick.
So I chose the template that I thought it had made for what I was using. Eeeerrrrrrrttt!!!
At first, I only noticed one small difference - I use quite a bit of italics in this manuscript because my MC is a thinking individual. And in the paragraph that I had been working in, it reversed the italics. I freaked a little and scrolled down a bit then saw the the rest of the paragraphs looked normal. Not a problem... I just changed them back.
THEN... I got past the part where I'd scrolled down. It had reversed italics for the rest of the 180 pg document. MW does not have a magic button that will just reverse them back. I would have to highlight and italicize/unitalicize every single paragraph - paying close attention to the words and sentences that needed reitalicized. *headdesk* REPEATEDLY!!!
Fortunately, I have my saved document... so I just have to go through the 40 pages I'd edited and line by line make the changes again in my back up document - it's a little better than line-by-lining 180 pages.
Again... *headdesk* repeatedly...
Word, you are on my shitlist...
Edit 6-5-09 1AM
Seems MW is getting the last laugh. I got through the editing and copied over the corrected version of the draft from my thumb drive - forgetting to copy the stuff I'd written today from the corrupted file.
(Yes, reversal of italics = corrupted file lol).
So... I lost the awesome fight scene I'd written today. I'm not sure I could recreate it.
Thankfully, my husband is a techgeeknerdextraordinaire and is currently trying to run a program to see if the lost file is recoverable. PLEASE someone pray for me!
It all began innocently enough when I decided to save a copy of my manuscript on my thumb drive since I was working on the story as a thunderstorm approached.
Normally, I would have just gone to the "my documents" folder and "sent" a copy to the thumb drive. But no! I freaking decided to use the "save as" function.
Again, normally not a problem...
But keep in mind that I'm using a different font style and size than Times New Roman 10 which MW thinks of as "normal".
And when you use a different style/size, it makes a template in the little drop down menu next to the font style you're currently using.
I know this - I should also know better than to think that MW knows what it's doing in this area.
Well, once you've used "saved as" and you open the document again, the template goes back to "normal". So, when I started editing, it put every little change I made back into TNR 10 instead of what I had been using.
NORMALLY - I would just select all and change everything to the font/size I wanted.
But that got old, really quick.
So I chose the template that I thought it had made for what I was using. Eeeerrrrrrrttt!!!
At first, I only noticed one small difference - I use quite a bit of italics in this manuscript because my MC is a thinking individual. And in the paragraph that I had been working in, it reversed the italics. I freaked a little and scrolled down a bit then saw the the rest of the paragraphs looked normal. Not a problem... I just changed them back.
THEN... I got past the part where I'd scrolled down. It had reversed italics for the rest of the 180 pg document. MW does not have a magic button that will just reverse them back. I would have to highlight and italicize/unitalicize every single paragraph - paying close attention to the words and sentences that needed reitalicized. *headdesk* REPEATEDLY!!!
Fortunately, I have my saved document... so I just have to go through the 40 pages I'd edited and line by line make the changes again in my back up document - it's a little better than line-by-lining 180 pages.
Again... *headdesk* repeatedly...
Word, you are on my shitlist...
Edit 6-5-09 1AM
Seems MW is getting the last laugh. I got through the editing and copied over the corrected version of the draft from my thumb drive - forgetting to copy the stuff I'd written today from the corrupted file.
(Yes, reversal of italics = corrupted file lol).
So... I lost the awesome fight scene I'd written today. I'm not sure I could recreate it.
Thankfully, my husband is a techgeeknerdextraordinaire and is currently trying to run a program to see if the lost file is recoverable. PLEASE someone pray for me!
- Mood:
pissed off
I've finally decided that it's time to do something.
I live in a neighborhood that's ideal for walking and it's time that I stop with the excuses.
So, yesterday and today, I walked about 2 miles (each day) up to one of our entrances.
I saw some squirrels and ducks (I walk past two lakes and a conservation area).
A beautiful white egret soared over one of the lakes each day.
Today, I got an extra treat - a red wing blackbird
By nature, I am not one to realllly pay attention to birds but this one was soooo pretty! His feathers were absolutely gorgeous - a very shiny black and two bright red spots with a yellow stripe at the bottom, near each shoulder. I'd never seen one before.
(these pics are for illustration only - owners retain copyrights)
I've also listened to some great music to help me keep pace.
I discovered that Rammstein's Eskimos & Egypt (instrumental) will really help me get home quickly when I'm wearing a white tshirt with a thunderstorm bearing down on me...
- Mood: enthralled
- Music:Eternity (AvB's rising star mix) - State of Trance [United]
I had a nightmare this morning and then had the very weird experience of stepping back and examining my feelings to see how that translated into the nightmares my character has. And, if mine were as potent as hers, I'd not sleep for days.
I was in a house in a new development so there was still a lot of dirt around outside from construction. I was playing with my best friend (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
1lostone )'s young daughter while my husband sat in bed in another room and it was kind of stormy outside. We were next to a window and suddenly I noticed a lot of sand start flying around and realized that a tornado was coming.
I grabbed the child and tried to get around this hallway wall that would sort of shield us from the window as the wind really picked up. I finally succeeded in laying flat across the hall, bracing my legs against the wall and protecting the little girl. The wind roared but no windows broke and stuff didn't fly through the house as you normally see in tornado videos - but the wall behind me buckled in toward me. My first fleeting thought was frustration that we'd have to fix that.
My next full thought was for my husband and I ran into the bedroom, upset that there hadn't been a thing I could do to help him during the tornado. He was lying back on the bed and moving just enough that I knew he was in pain. He was also covered with a lot of stuff that had slid off the table next to him - including a ton of small buildings from a full Christmas village (which might have been funny if I hadn't been so freaking scared!)
I started grabbing stuff off of him and calling his name over and over but he didn't respond.
I woke up, threw my arms around him and started crying. It's been a LONG time since I'd had a dream where I was THAT scared of losing someone.
I was able to reassure myself that it was only a dream and after a few minutes the fear faded.
That's what got me thinking about my character because I don't think I could've coped if the fear hadn't gone away. At what point does your mind just shut down because it can't handle what's happening?
- Mood:
contemplative
I need a "catfight" type of come back to this line:
You're out with your new love and a past flame of theirs shows up.
Flame still has the hots for your new love and says (about you):
"So this is the shiny new import? Looks good, but does she have more than just a body? How well does she drive?"
If you couldn't get in any trouble for what you said, what would you say?
You're out with your new love and a past flame of theirs shows up.
Flame still has the hots for your new love and says (about you):
"So this is the shiny new import? Looks good, but does she have more than just a body? How well does she drive?"
If you couldn't get in any trouble for what you said, what would you say?
The pain has passed and love has burned away all traces of heartache.
In an ironic and beautiful side note - when I first wrote the ending to this emotional scene, I'd used a specific line but I wasn't sure if I should keep it in the rewrite.
Then I asked my husband to describe what he'd felt at a certain moment in our relationship and he used the line verbatim.
It stayed.
God, I love this story!
- Mood: enraptured
- Music:"One Wish" Evbointh - Thrillseekers Vol 3
So I'm up to pg 329 of typing up the written stuff (out of about 400 pgs) then I have the final scenes to write. I'm at just under 82,000 words now so we'll see how long this thing ends up being after another edit. (Definitely the longest thing I've ever written in my life.)
My husband and I went out to sushi last night and talked about my story - he's so good about pinpointing what is going on/should happen based on the emotional fallout of the scenes. And he reminded me that he only says he can't wait for the story to be over when he's tired. Otherwise, he loves it just as much as I do. (yay!)
We figured out a huge piece of the puzzle too - What if you were holding the 1 bit of information that has been keeping the main love interests apart in the story? What would your purpose be in withholding that information? The answer? nice - but you'll have to read about it. :-)
So as I said, we've had visitors.
His cousin/husband teach English in S Korea and came with her mom to stay Sat and Sun night. On Sun we went to Kennedy Space Center and did the up close tour - very worth the money! (and gorgeous weather!)
I was going to upload the pics before this post but my new camera software has changed a bit and it's going to take me a while to figure out how to fix the pics so they aren't ginormous.
Since Monday, it's been raining cats & dogs everyday (which I love except when driving in it).
Thenelle_wolf and husband came down for the week. On Tuesday we joined them for a bit at Hollywood Studios then went to Downtown Disney. Not fun with the ponchos and the inclement weather n stuff but a blast otherwise.
When driving home Wednesday, my eye started acting up - I think I strained it and broke a blood vessel cuz it was all red and tearing up. It hurt every time the light around me changed so driving through rain/brighter cloudiness was NOT fun.
It wasn't better on Thurs so we didn't end up going over to Tampa to see the cousins one last time. :-(
Sounds like they'll be moving to the UK after their time in S Korea is up later this year. Awesome couple!!
On Friday, my dad drove me to take my husband's wheelchair to get brakes and new tires put on.
My eye is doing much better now (also helped that we could finally start getting more sleep each night than over the past month).
Tomorrow, it looks like friends will come over for a cookout and then Friday, the woman that started the writing group we went to for a while last year will come over more regularly so that she can get out of her house and write.
My husband and I went out to sushi last night and talked about my story - he's so good about pinpointing what is going on/should happen based on the emotional fallout of the scenes. And he reminded me that he only says he can't wait for the story to be over when he's tired. Otherwise, he loves it just as much as I do. (yay!)
We figured out a huge piece of the puzzle too - What if you were holding the 1 bit of information that has been keeping the main love interests apart in the story? What would your purpose be in withholding that information? The answer? nice - but you'll have to read about it. :-)
So as I said, we've had visitors.
His cousin/husband teach English in S Korea and came with her mom to stay Sat and Sun night. On Sun we went to Kennedy Space Center and did the up close tour - very worth the money! (and gorgeous weather!)
I was going to upload the pics before this post but my new camera software has changed a bit and it's going to take me a while to figure out how to fix the pics so they aren't ginormous.
Since Monday, it's been raining cats & dogs everyday (which I love except when driving in it).
Then
elle_wolf and husband came down for the week. On Tuesday we joined them for a bit at Hollywood Studios then went to Downtown Disney. Not fun with the ponchos and the inclement weather n stuff but a blast otherwise.When driving home Wednesday, my eye started acting up - I think I strained it and broke a blood vessel cuz it was all red and tearing up. It hurt every time the light around me changed so driving through rain/brighter cloudiness was NOT fun.
It wasn't better on Thurs so we didn't end up going over to Tampa to see the cousins one last time. :-(
Sounds like they'll be moving to the UK after their time in S Korea is up later this year. Awesome couple!!
On Friday, my dad drove me to take my husband's wheelchair to get brakes and new tires put on.
My eye is doing much better now (also helped that we could finally start getting more sleep each night than over the past month).
Tomorrow, it looks like friends will come over for a cookout and then Friday, the woman that started the writing group we went to for a while last year will come over more regularly so that she can get out of her house and write.
- Mood: calm before the storm
- Music:Thrillseekers... you guys gotta try this thing!
My mind is still reeling.
I'm smack dab in the middle of the most emotional moment in the story and I'm ready to explode. I've been in and out of the story so much this week that my head is spinning. I've been feeling this for almost two months straight now and I can't take anymore.
I'm afraid of what this story has done to me - it's the reason for the sequel (the obsession of writing) - but for now I'm still living it.
Just remember, the emotions you get when you read a good novel are only the tip of the iceberg of what the author goes through to write it.
I'm manic, I'm melodramatic, I'm all over the place and I can't think of anything else.
My husband can't wait for this story to be over. But I don't want to leave!
Everyone thinks I need a break - but you can't separate me from my mind and my emotions. My story goes with me no matter where I am and I am nowhere else. I exist in two superimposed worlds and I'm torn apart. I care about nothing and I feel everything.
That's the irony of it all: at the same time that I'm an author, I'm also a character in my own story.
My husband's cousin and her husband arrived Saturday evening and I mentioned that I needed to talk to him about sword fighting. (*cue eyes lighting up*) They used to be in the SCA...
- cue my excitement when at dinner he pulled his chair around to my side of the table. "So what do you want to know about sword fighting for your story?"
- cue dismay - the more he talked, the less I knew...
I read a scene from my story to him and he really liked it.
He told me to concentrate on the emotions of the fighting because that's the point of this story.
My God! Someone else understands it even better than me!
So of course now I'm all insecure.
We even pulled out a couple of swords for some practice "moves".
Yeah, in theory I wanted him to beat the ever-loving snot out of me. But I now I know how my character will feel when faced with that.
Totally out of her element and unable to escape - she must let go and play the fool to get through.
It's the point of nano - only everyone is watching.
If only we could all swallow stage fright and possess the spotlight with such grace..
On a side note - it's uncanny how many people in my life remind me of each other. Said cousin's husband reminds me of
sirwingate and I had to grin when he ordered Mt Dew.- Mood:
indescribable - Music:The sweet sound of a fractured mind
Everything is jumbled so if this post is clear, it's not my fault.
I got some new musics: Daughtry (bout time I bought that!), Tiesto, Oakenfold, Thrillseekers and Tait.
Now to finish ripping them and then listen to discover new treasures.
Things have been going well with the novel and I figured out THE PREMISE (*cue god echo*) and a big reason for why certain characters just *know* things and only a select few have certain powers. Nice.
My desk is an absolute mess - full of THE NOTEBOOKS containing the original written draft and many many different pieces of paper with hastily scrawled notes and maps, various other paraphernalia, and a sudoku book.
I don't have much room on my desk so typing the story is hard because my arms are resting on THE NOTEBOOKS.
No, the floor around my desk is FULL too.
M-I-L and boyfriend spent the night last night in effort to see us (they travel a lot and we're hermits) so I had to clean on Wednesday which cut into my novel time and things got stressed (and broken) but the place looks great.
If you want to see it, now is the time cuz it usually only stays clean for about 5 minutes.
Just before they arrived, I took a short nap.
(We've been getting 6 or less hours of sleep each night this week due to circumstances - a medical thing with him and something about a literary obsession thing with me.)
During said nap, I had a *wonderful* dream and I wanted to post about it.
I don't know why - I just thought I should inflict more of my craziness on the world. (Other than the stuff that's already in my novel.)
So, after some weird part about me being back in school but supposed to be at work at the same time (typical sort of stress dream) we're suddenly in this Irish tavern type of place - only it has a stage and we're there to watch - um - Phantom of the Opera.
The Phantom is being chased by someone who comes out on a Japanese style motorcycle that's COVERED in black satin bows and loops (such as...)
and it turns out to be the Joker wearing a red version of the Green Goblin's outfit but with a black cape.
Cuz - you know, the Joker is really Dracula! And of course, the Phantom, is really Batman.
So they're chasing each other through a hotel and Joker/Dracula climbs up a ladder after the Phantom/Batman but P/B moves it over so that instead of coming up through the same opening, J/D ends up on the chandelier of the Tavern, saying something about how he's chasing P/B through "our hotel".
And my husband's best friend (Huge Dude) is sitting near the stage and calls out "OUR HOTEL" so that no one misses the line because he's seen this show before and it turns out that Joker/Dracula and Phantom/Batman are really roommates in this hotel and they just chase each other around for fun.
:firm nod:
And I have sworn off WHATEVER I ate/drank/inhaled/snorted/popped/swirled before that nap.
And I only woke up then because my husband (in the other room) suddenly said "Whoa whoa whoa!" as an alarm sounded and his computer ominously started saying, "Virus detected".
(thanks avast)
aye aye aye!
So then, Huge Dude from the dream calls this morning. His birthday is Sunday and he's going to Epcot and has lunch reservations at the very place that my husband had originally wanted to take me to for my birthday. Guess I will get to eat there after all.
So that takes care of this weekend. (Free Comic Book day is Saturday.)
Next Thursday night is Star Trek in Imax.
Thenelle_wolf is coming down later this month and that turns out to be the same week that my husband's cousins are coming in from South Korea.
So it's possible we'll cross the state doing Kennedy Space Center, various Disney parks and Busch Gardens all before Memorial Day.
What a whirlwind month this will be!
But now I must get back to beating the ever-loving snot out of my characters.
Oh and do the finances, too. Yeah, I have no clue how much we spent last month and that's unusual for me. *cringe*
I got some new musics: Daughtry (bout time I bought that!), Tiesto, Oakenfold, Thrillseekers and Tait.
Now to finish ripping them and then listen to discover new treasures.
Things have been going well with the novel and I figured out THE PREMISE (*cue god echo*) and a big reason for why certain characters just *know* things and only a select few have certain powers. Nice.
My desk is an absolute mess - full of THE NOTEBOOKS containing the original written draft and many many different pieces of paper with hastily scrawled notes and maps, various other paraphernalia, and a sudoku book.
I don't have much room on my desk so typing the story is hard because my arms are resting on THE NOTEBOOKS.
No, the floor around my desk is FULL too.
M-I-L and boyfriend spent the night last night in effort to see us (they travel a lot and we're hermits) so I had to clean on Wednesday which cut into my novel time and things got stressed (and broken) but the place looks great.
If you want to see it, now is the time cuz it usually only stays clean for about 5 minutes.
Just before they arrived, I took a short nap.
(We've been getting 6 or less hours of sleep each night this week due to circumstances - a medical thing with him and something about a literary obsession thing with me.)
During said nap, I had a *wonderful* dream and I wanted to post about it.
I don't know why - I just thought I should inflict more of my craziness on the world. (Other than the stuff that's already in my novel.)
So, after some weird part about me being back in school but supposed to be at work at the same time (typical sort of stress dream) we're suddenly in this Irish tavern type of place - only it has a stage and we're there to watch - um - Phantom of the Opera.
The Phantom is being chased by someone who comes out on a Japanese style motorcycle that's COVERED in black satin bows and loops (such as...)
and it turns out to be the Joker wearing a red version of the Green Goblin's outfit but with a black cape.
Cuz - you know, the Joker is really Dracula! And of course, the Phantom, is really Batman.
So they're chasing each other through a hotel and Joker/Dracula climbs up a ladder after the Phantom/Batman but P/B moves it over so that instead of coming up through the same opening, J/D ends up on the chandelier of the Tavern, saying something about how he's chasing P/B through "our hotel".
And my husband's best friend (Huge Dude) is sitting near the stage and calls out "OUR HOTEL" so that no one misses the line because he's seen this show before and it turns out that Joker/Dracula and Phantom/Batman are really roommates in this hotel and they just chase each other around for fun.
:firm nod:
And I have sworn off WHATEVER I ate/drank/inhaled/snorted/popped/swirled before that nap.
And I only woke up then because my husband (in the other room) suddenly said "Whoa whoa whoa!" as an alarm sounded and his computer ominously started saying, "Virus detected".
(thanks avast)
aye aye aye!
So then, Huge Dude from the dream calls this morning. His birthday is Sunday and he's going to Epcot and has lunch reservations at the very place that my husband had originally wanted to take me to for my birthday. Guess I will get to eat there after all.
So that takes care of this weekend. (Free Comic Book day is Saturday.)
Next Thursday night is Star Trek in Imax.
Then
elle_wolf is coming down later this month and that turns out to be the same week that my husband's cousins are coming in from South Korea.So it's possible we'll cross the state doing Kennedy Space Center, various Disney parks and Busch Gardens all before Memorial Day.
What a whirlwind month this will be!
But now I must get back to beating the ever-loving snot out of my characters.
Oh and do the finances, too. Yeah, I have no clue how much we spent last month and that's unusual for me. *cringe*
- Mood: confused
I love my husband! Within hours of having broken the digital camera he'd gotten me for Christmas just before we got married, I had a new one. A sleek, sexy black little number that's a couple generations after the one I had (which didn't feel like an old clunker by any stretch of the imagination).
So now I have 12 mega pixels at my disposal instead of just 5. Nice
And our power bill last month was the lowest it's ever been since we moved in 2 years ago though it still took me a bit to realize why - my computer had been off for the past month. I didn't know it pulled so much power!
But now that I'm typing up the story, I can't go back to notebooks. I probably will when I get to the sequel - then again, maybe not since I won't be whole scale changing things like I did for this book. We shall see.
I'm a bit frustrated with my story right now (yes, again lol) because it seems too bare bones. In rereading it last night, it didn't feel like I got to know the characters as well by the time they arrived together. Dunno what to do.
"What to do? What to do? *snap* I know! The creature in the tower!"
"Latrine? *shudders* Boy is she ugly!"
So now I have 12 mega pixels at my disposal instead of just 5. Nice
And our power bill last month was the lowest it's ever been since we moved in 2 years ago though it still took me a bit to realize why - my computer had been off for the past month. I didn't know it pulled so much power!
But now that I'm typing up the story, I can't go back to notebooks. I probably will when I get to the sequel - then again, maybe not since I won't be whole scale changing things like I did for this book. We shall see.
I'm a bit frustrated with my story right now (yes, again lol) because it seems too bare bones. In rereading it last night, it didn't feel like I got to know the characters as well by the time they arrived together. Dunno what to do.
"What to do? What to do? *snap* I know! The creature in the tower!"
"Latrine? *shudders* Boy is she ugly!"
- Mood: geeky
- Music:minuscule violin for my lot in life